"If you're ain't first, you're last"

I never though that time passes by this quickly, this blog use to be the place where i pour my heart to, to be as general as I can be so it won't only remind me of the lessons I can use but everyone can use. I tried doing a lot of things to keep up with my thoughts, from writing in my phone to doodling all over but i still can't find the time to put it up here.

Time passes meaning we're getting older each day. People around use grow older, wiser, mature and smarter, but it doesn't leave us from the fact that we often miss out on the things that we need to do, the responsibility and the authority that we need to uphold.

On one fine day as I was praying in the KLCC surau on the LG floor, i realised this small kid was following his dad taking abulation. This kid couldn't be more that 2 years old. He attentively followed everything that his dad did and followed every step of the prayers behind his dad. I was almost teary looking at that because I was once in the same behaviour as that kid, i had to follow my dad everywhere especially to the mosque and was so obedient that i didn't even move from my place because my dad asked me to up until i peed in my pants from holding it too long.

Looking at this and pondering on my past, i keep on thinking if i could do the same for my son. He's growing so big now and I often ask him along when i'm praing, wearing him his purple kopiah (prayer hat) and just putting him beside me. He knows that it's time to pray and he would just sit there and sometimes pressing his face on the prayer mat, smart boy.

I am in love with the responsibility that I have to do, i'm in love with the extra work i have to go through, i'm in love with the life that i have. I would not change even one bit of that and I thank God from giving me the strength to see clearly of the things that I have and not the things that i don't have.