Trial And Error

Have you ever tried many types of food in one restaurant, or one type of food in many restaurant, how many times have you changed fuel to find out which one is the best fuel for your car, have you ever tried downloading many movies just to see what's good is on, have you ever tried different bus going different routes, have you ever went to a movie just to find out it's not worth the ticket you bought...this is all trial and errors. If you don't get it right the first time, there's always a other times...but...you just don't get "unlimited chances". But that "other" times is probably btter in 1001 ways, better that you are smarter, mature, sharper and even stronger. once you get it right and you want what's right for you...grab it...

People write and read vows everyday, there's a terminology, i hope, future, soon to be and so on but those are just hopeful words, optimistically proven words to give people hope either real or false hope. But what we can be is to be sure...if people say in sickness and in health, we should know that we will be there to take care and cherish and mutually love a person, till forever and every for eternity. moreover if the person lights the road to happiness...

Birthdays

This has been in draft for dunno how long...

How time passes so quickly, without noticing it's already 3 days past my birthday and I didnt even realise it'll be that quick. Anyhow this year's birthday is different, i am very happy and it feel complete with the presence of the people you care about.

Birthday use to be an emotional time for me. Actually i couldn't ask for more as I was taught to not ask for any more that i have or got. but this year i'm simply happy by just having a ferris wheel with me. I've been busy with work and stuffs and without realising i haven't had any time or having to do anything relates to my own birthday

Past, present and future

Do we walk a straight line? I dont think so, even on the road , we have turnings to the left and right to reach our destination, having to move about to achieve so much. It' not simply following a script, it's not simply following a story line but it's living a reality. Humans lives with what completes and comforts them. What feels natural to them. You can have anything and everything but not having those elements.

Have you ever had moments where you just feel so complete? and every single thing you do feels so natural and heavenly...because if you don't go and look for it because you might be missing on a lot of wonderful things.. ;-)

Sweetness of the sweeties

Sometimes we ponder and say to ourself what makes us think about something so much. Is it gestures, is it thoughts or is it simply a smell. Did u realise how much perfume you wear, you juts cant smell yourself and you end smelling the other person more...makes us awake at night...

Without oxygen

Have you ever laughed so much that you feel that you feel you've ran out of oxygen. How you start to gasp for air and how you feel your head is shrinking and your eyes starts to close...all caused by laughing. It's a wonderful feeling because it makes u be yourself. I makes you let out the feelings that you've never got the chance to express. It makes you, YOU. you start to feel that you wanna hold someone, cherish someone, kiss someone and just enjoy the company of someone...

One liner

What makes you happy? Since i had such a complicated life all of my life with all the struggle for success i settle for the smallest things to make me happy. One of it is one liners either giving or taking. It just makes my days, makes me feel good, makes me on top of the world to receive one liners such as hearing or getting sms saying that "I miss you" or something along that line. It feel especially nice receiving from someone dear to you. And it somehow feels as good giving the same thing. saying to that person, i miss you or i'm thinking of you, i want you near and other wonderful things. Being expressive makes a human, human. You make the other person know how you feel, it will make you feel better and so as well the other person. If you think of that person tell him or her and if you need that person just tell. Not being visible doesn't mean that person is never close to the heart...let it be said!!!

Leader

These few days I've been looking back, back tracking my years, what I've become, what I've achieved and trying to target what I want. Probably this post i shall tribute to my bloodline, where through this bloodline i was taught how to be a leader. I remember when i was way younger even during my primary school years i was already taught to wear smart, make sure its a collared shirt, pants, preferably no jeans...thats why even now you will seldom see me wearing jeans except the one i crazily subconsciously bought in the states, i had to have a belt on and shoes, always shoes...no selipar jepun that i love wearing so much nowadays. hehe.

Even at that young age i was constantly reminded on how i should talk, what i should achieve, what i should target...i was exposed to social function and other important events. When i was in my secondary, i was taught to think smart, think how to lead, make decisions..never be unsure and say i think, yes "kot" or answer yes or no instead of uhuh and how to stare down a person and talk to a person straight to their eyes. To feel how a leader should feel, lonely...had to make tough decision, to face the most difficult things.

After school during university days and throughout my working years i was still reminded but at this time I've created my own ways. I was a person who just couldn't wait to practice what I've learned and gained all these years. I ended my studies as quickly as possible, started work as soon possible, mastered all the areas i could, make millions as quickly as i can, became directors of as many companies as possible and do just what i can...and the most tough part is that now I'm not the person that had that gentle heart anymore...

Get busy living or get busy dying

Thats the quote of the day or we can also think of getting rich or die trying..haha...anyhoo we should see in the aspect of reaching the sky with what we have. The surrounding plays a much important part, partners, friends, environment. We experience weirdness and scariness in our everyday life...but we go through it and finally we realise its been many years that we had to go through that hardship. If we were to fall in love at first sight, i would've taken a second look and fall in love all over again the second time

Pursuit of happyness

The holiday has given me the time to watch a new ( i think it's still new) movie, the pursuit of happyness..can u imagine having to go thru all the pain. no one will ever know how it feels except yourself. was he stupid? did he break his promise? no he didn't..he kept on trying. He had this thing, this thing call determination to carry on. Some determination can also be considered stupid in the eyes of some people, more of a cari pasal one but u just need to look further inside to find the real truth in it, the positive part of the story.

Through my life's experience i would never complaint a bit of what I've been through. For those who've seen the movie and saw will smith slept in the toilet and stuffs, can you feel it? u can but u can never experience it, I've been there...felt how it feels to sleep in the weirdest condition, although it was in the category of unnecessary determination but it made me who i am right now and i took it the positive way and I'm on a path to happiness in my own way...