And again time hasn't been the bestest friend to me to do my writing. Yesterday, i think most of us went through the Monday blues. For me it's not only Mondays that we go through the "blue" but all week, it's just that Monday has to exceed the expectations of the previous weekend.
In my life before, the meaning of weekend and weekdays has the same meaning and difference of between beehoon goreng and mee goreng. Everyday was a struggle, it's all about work, expectations, leaping higher and higher. Regret. Regret is not something I have in my dictionary of life...i did lose out on a lot of things in my life due to trying to chase my dreams, such as youth life, enjoying my self and a lot more things. But we have to be able to weight between the good and bad, and when the advantage or good exceeds the versa, then it's definitely not something to regret.
I've gained a number of precious and valuable experience in my life. I would never deny they are people who are much more luckier than me to get experience the easy way, but i did crawl just to catch up with those people and i did. No moving in a slower pace, i feel confined, i don't feel as free as before, I'm not able to demonstrate my true potential anymore, i don't create the networks that I'm able to build anymore but nevertheless, I'm learning a lot as well. I'm learning things that hasn't been my field, this demonstrate that I'm able to adapt and learn so much in so little time. I have nothing to prove to other, but I'm here just to prove to myself that i can definitely do it...whatever it 's, it's 7:40am now and I'm off for a jog...and prolly nasi lemak ganja later... :)
